D’var Torah – April 4
Shabbat Shalom!
I hope this finds you all well.
Many moons ago, back when I was a gawky teenager in my senior year of high school, I gave a ride home to two fellow seniors. I thought I was so cool, so great driving other folks around. I was so consumed with this sense of adolescent hubris and youthful arrogance that as I turned right at a red stop light, I literally didn’t think to look to my left to see if there was any oncoming traffic. We almost got hit and I had to peel off the road to avoid a collision. I was beyond ashamed and embarrassed, and my classmates were visibly shaken by the experience. Ridden with guilt, I told my dad (of blessed memory) what happened as soon as I got home, handed him the car keys, and declared that I never wanted to drive again. After a couple days, he sat me down and asked me four questions:
“What did you do?”
“What were the implications of what you did?”
“Did you apologize to your classmates and make amends with them?”
“What are you going to do in the future to make sure that never happens again?”
I answered the first three questions to his satisfaction, but my answer to his fourth- “I’m never driving again,” was simply not acceptable to him. He handed me the keys to the car, and said, “you’re going to take me to the supermarket and I’m going to give you the directions.” We took a very long, scenic route getting there, one that involved a lot of four-way intersections, red lights, stop signs, and right turns.
Looking back, I can’t be more grateful to my Dad. It was the ultimate “dust yourself off and get back on the horse” moment.
I’ll be honest – I hadn’t thought about that story from my life for years, and I do mean years, until I came to this week’s parsha of Vayikra (Leviticus 1:1-5:26).
In Vayikra, God tells Moses the following:
“When a person unwittingly incurs guilt in regard to any of God’s commandments about things not to be done, and does one of them —
If it is the anointed priest who has incurred guilt, so that blame falls upon the people, he shall offer for the sin of which he is guilty a bull of the herd without blemish as a sin offering to God.
If it is the community leadership of Israel that has erred and the matter escapes the notice of the congregation, so that they do any of the things which by God’s commandments ought not to be done, and they realize guilt — when the sin through which they incurred guilt becomes known, the congregation shall offer a bull of the herd as a sin offering, and bring it before the Tent of Meeting.
The elders of the community shall lay their hands upon the head of the bull before God, and the bull shall be slaughtered before God.” (Leviticus 4:2-4, 13-15*)
Earlier this week I was listening to retired Navy SEAL and podcaster Jocko Willink as he interviewed fellow retired SEAL Jim Foreman. Specifically, they discussed mistakes and errors they made on the battlefield and how they dusted themselves off and got back on the horse. Willink offered the following nuggets of advice:
“…it’s my fault and sometimes; [and] people, they take that to the point of ’it’s my fault and therefore I need to be punished over and over and over again and never forgiven.’…If you can’t say ‘oh yeah, here’s what I did, this was my intent, I didn’t intend for this bad thing to happen but it is certainly is something I did. I’m going to learn from it and I’m going to forgive myself and move on.’… I think if you can go, ‘okay, here’s where I am culpable, here’s the mistakes that I made, here’s how I’ll prevent them happening again,’ I think that’s the way out of it and the way to move forward in life.” [1]
Interestingly enough, the Jewish Publication Society’s 1985 translation of the Torah alternatively calls the khatat the sin offering, the “offering of purgation.”[2] In other words, it means purging, removing, getting rid of the sin from one’s presence and life.
The beauty of the sin offering/offering of purgation is that it allowed our ancestors to atone for their errors, learn from their mistakes, and get back to work with the full knowledge of what they had gained from their experience.
Bizrat HaShem, with God’s help, may we always atone for and learn from our errors, may others accept our atonement (and we their’s), and may we all come back from our mistakes stronger, wiser, more compassionate, and overall better people.
Wishing you a Good Shabbos and a great weekend.
Bivrakha,
Rabbi Aaron Stucker-Rozovsky
Beth El Congregation | 520 Fairmont Ave, Winchester, VA 22601
(540) 667-1889 (office)